Some experiences you go through now are not for you, they are for someone else.
See them as life lessons.
I know you feel you do not deserve it but what do your feelings know. They are too insecure to call the shots for you.
You need to learn how to be fine with being lonely for a season.
The experience will serve as wisdom for someone else.
You need to learn how to be fine with looking foolish, uncool and conventionally incorrect.
Someone needs that experience as comfort for a season.
Listen, you need to be a kind of person who can be touched with the feeling of infirmities of others. Too many people are consumed with a need to be better than others they forget people relate more to someone who understands what it is like to be them.
You need these experiences.
They are legal tenders for certain heights and places.