Does it ever seem like the people around you can get away with stuffs but if you were to try it, God would not allow you rest. You just cannot try it..
Those are seeds on the inside, bearing witness to your uniqueness.
You are not ordinary.
This uniqueness on your inside serves a purpose and that is why you cannot compromise.
You just cannot.
It is not because of you, it is because of the many lives attached to you.
The future will answer most of the reservations and questions you have.
Hang in there.