There is a name for a feeling that isn’t sadness or joy or indifference. You are just placid, you are unmoved about things that matter, your passion is depleted, your energy level is beyond red, and i am tired is now an anthem. You zeal is on the floor and picking it up seems like such a toughie.

You just are tired, you are drained, emotionally and socially.
Emotionally because your priorities were misplaced, socially because you are surronded by people who just don’t get it.
You hear move on and you are wondering, what exactly does that mean??
Some few months before you probably could bag a cum laude dissecting what it means to move on and why you should, now you just want to stay there.

Your will power no longer takes orders from your heart, it takes from your mood. Your mood right now is volatile and you know that’s dangerous.
It doesn’t help that everyone has a say on how you should get out of this limbo and with every phonecall and text and are you okay? You keep taking one foot backwards

You are weary from explaining that what is going on isn’t what they think it is but you also cannot explain what is going on how it is, so you are at the mercy of their interpretation.

Lets assume you really do dig into what I am saying.
You are in a limbo and you are exhausted from it all.
You want the woman you used to be, you want her back and badly too.
So you start to take baby steps..each day is a step forward in the right direction, you quit the pity party, explanations and start to live.

You pull off the sheets and shake off the feelings. Soon the woman you are now will seem like a blurry vision on the rear view on your drive to wholeness.
Keep putting one foot in front of the other and it will add up soon enough.

Your grit, your fierceness , your passion, your zeal, the woman you are…